Downtime.

It is very hard to accept failure.
I admit,

  I have failed. I failed without even trying. I gave up without even accepting my challenge . I regret. I feel remorse. I lack determination, hardwork, self-confidence, my list can go futher.
It's going to be a long journey to come back on track, to come back where I used to be.

  Angriness is eating me up from inside. I feel there's something in my body, crawling, running within my blood. Frustration, sadness, remorse, depression, headaches are giving me nothing. Yet, I still hope. I have faith. I believe, there's always light at the end of the tunnel. I am not optimist, but I do day-dreaming. I am going to get better soon.I hope! keeping my fingers crossed.