Saturday, October 25, 2014


I have been trying to solve a paper since morning; hours have been passed and I can't get it done. Its just 50 blanks which I have to find it from the given chapters and I just can't.

A Song. An old Indian movie song is stuck in my head and it keeps on repeating every after a minute at the background and I don't even know that song well enough. Its the freaking tittle line and I feel like it will last forever. Please get the heck out of my head?

Noises. noises. everywhere.
 the water pumping machine,
 the sewing machine on which my mother is sewing something.
 the television.
siblings talk
the washing machine
and this songggg.

Friday, October 24, 2014


 You rise every time when you fall.

But, what if you stumble, and fall every minute you walk up? You start wobbling and tilting when you try to stand straight. From here to there, just a single step forward, and dhrum* dhrum* bhrrom*! Three steps down, in another moment you come to know someone has slipped again and when you come back into your senses, you realize it is you on the floor; clinching eyes with a frown on the mouth, just pretending to die for a moment or maybe praying to pass out.  Why the heck I did not see that. This is insane.

Oh. Yes, you are insane. Not because you fell again but cause’ you did not count how many times you stand back on your feet. This shall to pass and you will learn.

      But what if someone likes being on floor?  This temporary place becomes permanent? Isn’t a lot easier then? No more bruises or blood dripping down through ankle or knee, no more tears. You learn to accept things as they are now. Gulping down the fact that you are a looser, loner and stupid, eventually the struggle ceases. Things get incredibly easy when you learn accepting your faults, when you know them. Don’t they?

       Sigh* you surrendered that easily? Are you running away? Why do you even worry if things get out of your hand? Or something bad happens to you? You got nothing to loose coward. Try facing it; if you can’t then stop complaining about others and question yourself, what are you doing? All you are doing is withdrawing from your empty account. Please, deposit in it first. Do you happen to know where that strong person is? which I used to know; after some time, may be a year later you will laugh about all this and thanks Allah for making you go all through hard time. It only makes you strong, stronger than ever before.